am (Bad Days)

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It's 10am and I'm not feeling well
There's something wrong but I cannot tell
What it is, so I try to move on

It's 11am and I'm crawling back into bed
Cause I can't stand the screaming inside of my head
I can't stand this silence around me alone
I don't know, I don't know

So I try sleeping it off but that never works
I'm scared that one day you will discover me down in the dirt
When I find strength to drag this deadweight body over the edge

(Empty exhaust fumes are set alight and burn with fire brighter than the whitest light, while rains of meteors come down and hit the atmosphere, an end to every life)

And I know it's not fair that I ask you to stay
When I want to leave
But I'm going nowhere
I just bury myself under layers of comforting grief
Weaving through everything
And weighing me down
Pulling feathers from my spine
Cutting chords so I can't make a sound

(I can't let you leave I can't let you leave I can't let you leave)

The day is done and I made it through
I'm so heavy and worn-out as I lie down next to you
And I pray for some peaceful nothingness
To come and fill my chest

And I'm feeling so small, a helpless child
And I know that nothing can ever be right
Until they close my sunken eyes
One last time


from Light Your Fires, released May 26, 2017



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A writer and singer of melancholic indie folk songs - spilling my heart, soul and thoughts out into the world, one note at a time.

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