Enigma EP

by Babyalligator

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JB Hauntingly beautiful. Heart-breaking words and melodies.
Wonderfully ethereal arrangements full of bitter earth and gorgeous light.
Deceptively humble in presentation, but otherworldly in effect.

It is clear that great attention was paid to these delicate arrangements, not only through the songwriting and structures themselves, but the increased use of overdubs (notably, emulating electric pianos and cellos through what might be those instruments or just guitars engineered/mixed very well!) Favorite track: Read Me.
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This is an EP made up of a few songs that will or will not be on my upcoming album, one of them being a very lo-fi onetrack demo I recorded in our kitchen (you can even hear the fridge buzzing at some point). I've been working on these for quite some time now and I hope you enjoy! Stay tuned for more.

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released March 24, 2017

Songs written, arranged and recorded as well as album art made by Hannah Reinhardt aka Babyalligator.

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Babyalligator Berlin, Germany

A writer and singer of melancholic indie folk songs - spilling my heart, soul and thoughts out into the world, one note at a time.

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Track Name: Enigma
Back in the day you built a labyrinth of home and jealous eyes
You used the absence of a thread to keep me lost inside
My vision black, my wrists and ankles tied
And in my head the path is blurred
But I did make it out alive
With broken bones, heavily bruised
But I will be fine

In secret books I hid the words
I didn't dare to say to you
I was a mess with burning doubts
If what my instincts said was true
Over and over, fallen through

Back in the day you made me vow that I would forever stay
It took me years to gather courage up to disobey
You didn't mean to do me harm, but you did anyway

And in the past I kept it hid
I was uncertain and ashamed
But time has passed and I see clearer now
Imprints of teethmarks fade
The empty cage beneath my shirt
Now filled with love instead of heavy weight
And on the empty stage of life
We go our separate ways

And I don't want to be your friend
Don't want to know where you are now
While I am mending the amends you made
While I was still around
In secret codes I spell the words
That I don't dare to say out loud
It hurts so much to realise
That they will never be found
The truth will stay buried in sound.
Track Name: Read Me
Acidic bruises, un-seeing eyes
I'm handing over my god-given rights
A bitterness used so easily
Accusations, turned against me

Read me
It's such an easy key
Read me
We come in pairs but independently
Read me
It's in the words that you choose to ignore
Read me
To figure out what I was dying for

Abyss below, unnoticed scars extend
Into futures, where I try to mend
A burning, unforgiven secrets end
Rising from ashes with ruthless intent

Read me
It's such an easy key
Read me
We come in pairs but independently
Read me
It's in the part that you refuse to play
Read me
You screwed me up and I can't even say your name

Merciless, envious rage
Love is nowhere
To be found.
Track Name: Bonfire Night
Tell me, how can you bear it? How can you bear all of this pain
That you put yourself through, day after day, again and again

You hold yourself up to the flames, until there's nothing to hold
You are covered in ashes, while your red, red blood is running cold
In broken vessels that you hide away from me
I know why you can't tell the truth but why do you think that I don't see
I'm not blind and you're poorly disguised
While you're tumbling at full speed towards the day you'll die

It's not my sermon to give and yet I can't not preach
Your joy lies in colours and music, but where will they go when you leave?
Have you picked a dress for your funeral yet, a last song to be played?
Is the table for all of your mourning guests set? Are you angry? Do you feel betrayed?

You spin away with no center
Out of control, you're caught in a tremor
Forever

Unless you find a way to break these circles that never end
You're not alone, I'm just like you and I hope to god that you can ascend
From those depths to which you sank and where no light can be
Let the currents pull you up so you can rise above the sea

...but you spin away
Track Name: False Starts (super lo-fi-demo)
Footsteps of failure cling to my feet
Without them I'd be incomplete
They burn my soles and stain my path
Splitting my consciousness in half.
You find me dressed in lilac, unable to talk
And all my best efforts, washed away like rainflushed chalk
False starts and empty promises,
The voices stay anonymous.
Stare into lifeless eyes of a pale halfmoon
My love is a wasteland that you threw yourself into.
Slipped through the cracks again, come undone,
Hiding my hopelessness away from everyone.
I write it on the sidewalk, praying for rain
„This is the last time“, I tell the cold porcelain
But we both know that that's a lie
I'm a lost cause, undignified.
I'm on my best behaviour, but that doesn't mean a thing
It's only a matter of time until I turn to stone and sink
Things keep falling through the holes that spot my mind
Deliberate habitual slow suicide
Surrounded by white roses and made from clay,
Drowned in the darkness that comes with each dying day
Caught within chambers of a restless heart
The circling serpents tear me apart
I'm resurrected and reborn
I carry on.